10 days and 13 days

Okay, It's been 10 frikkin days since i last posted..

SORRY!!


ive been heaps busy.

Being it the last term for the school year, it's gradually time to work hard!
There are lots of Assignments to Complete. Essays, Homework and just other things.




13 days until I leave for Vietnam.. :\




Well, I guess this will be my last post.
I have too much to do



but you could always contact me at these places

http://www.punichiyo.deviantart.com

*Go on www.youtube.com and search OMGitsSUPERretard
and click on the channel


*AIM users - Contact SeeRawrrrrh

*MSN users - Contact OMGits_CHi@live.com



hmm anything else..?


i guess thats all


ill see you guys around then ^^


very sorry DX

<3

A faraway post :\

Aiyaaa ever since the thingomabop, i put my blog off for a very long time huh?

i've just been lazy, it's late spring and im sick! D: I hate summer and the hot weather, i don't know why but I always get sick in summer, i love the winter =D

uhhh yeahh

i've put alot of things off D:

Drawing
Homework and just other random stuff i dont know xDD


i feel seriously horrible D:

My Back Hurts
Tummy Owwieeee
Sore Neck
Sore Throat
Itchy Eyes
Sore legs
Aching Arms
etcetc



Schools been sucky, I hate school D:
well, my school. Farking hell our school is bloody making the students pay for sooooo many things D: even for the sports equipment use. THAT IS SOOOOO STUPID! DX. My family is blood friggin poor D:<

POOORRRRRR

there are even days we dont even have a dollar!

which seriously pisses me off

it's all my mums fault

her and her gambling problem ><

far out..








anywayy.. what else has happened..? oh right about the funeral as well..

damn was it tiring or what?

I had to kneel, for a bloody hour! I couldnt even walk properly when i had to get up and poor tea. I was soo pissed off DX


and just other random stuff happened i guess..



so tired..

T.T






Aaanndd I'm starting.. to get addicted.. to... Piano Instrumentals Again.
><;; they're just tooo peaceful T.T


well yeahh



Byee <3

My Grandma's Voice

Just got off the phone with my grandma.. one of the people that lived with my dad before he passed away..




wait..

(NOTE: 1st November 2008 - Burn Incense)

okay.. so.. My mum insisted on me calling my grandma. I did so and heard her voice, her angry, sad, happy voice. The aching came back to me when I heard it. She kept asking me questions of which I could reveal the answer to.


I might be seeing her soon.. My mum is making me go down to Springvale which is 17 suburbs away and I truly don't want to. I'm really scared, what if they don't let me go and insist on me staying? I dont really want to stay.. My grandma also insisted on me seeing my dad one last time. He died of pills overdose. My dad's dead face.. Im scared.. what i its really scary? I don't like scary things. I quick glimpse should do.. I should visit my grandma more often. It would probably make her happier.














I hate life.

Dear Dad, I'm Sorry..

I feel really upset, depressed and bad. I've been such a horrible person. I feel really selfish and may have just caused a rose to have wilt from suicide.

Remember how I told you about my dad that hit my mum and made us move and all that? Well, 2 days ago he died of suicide and I only heard of it today. I feel really bad. I always refused to see him because he was that one man i despised, he took my school things (paint brush FROM SCHOOL (teachers let us borrow it)) and used it as a a car engine cleaning tool. He brang in broken things off the street and tried to fix them. He never got a job. He smoked. Hit me for ever crying at anything. and etc etc.

now I feel horrible, when I look back.. there were some times he was really nice to me..

He gave me hugs and kisses and the forehead..
He sometimes cooked breakfast or dinner for me..
He let me ride around town on my scooter..

and just other stuff..

he was there more than my mum ever was.



I treated him so badly and yet for the past year (the incident) he kept walking around town looking for me. He went everywhere and asked everyone where I was. And now he's fed up because I wasn't there and committed suicide.





so Dear Dad..

I'm really sorry..



<3

Listening and Others =)

Okay, I'm the kind of weirdo that likes to be listened to when needed..

if I'm trying to say something and someone interrupts, i start feeling upset.. it's as if they don't care and would mostly only worry about themself.. I feel as if I (MEE) am a diary myself and is only a storage for others thoughts and worries, where as I have no place for my thoughts to go but here.

and I was playing a game this afternoon, I was killing these beetles for a quest and I spent 2 HOURS just trying to kill 10 2 HOURS!!! you know why it took soo long?! because other frikking players kept coming along and stealing my kill! i was soooo pissed off DX like they only cared about themself and was doing their own quests while I was looking around for the right monster to kill.. (why healing others on the way :D)



and pretty much yeah...



OH!!! and I didnt get to see Samantha T.T


she called and said that her parents didnt let her go to the city anymore because they thought it was too far away..







DAMN YOU SAMANTHAS PARENTS!!!!!!



I miss you Samantha D:


<3




Note to Self:

its freaky being home alone for 2 days..

and starving for 48 hours D8

No One's Really There

No one's really there.. when you get to school and you see people laughing and smiling.. just not with you.

No one's really there when you really need someone by your side..

No one's really there when you needed help.. they only turned and walked off..

No one's really there because you know they don't really like you.

No one's really there.. because.. the never were.




lolss no idea what im writing.. but im starting to get the feeling that I can't trust anyone or have a true friend in school. I wish Samantha were here D:

I have always considered Lanna being my best friend in school

but today she kept hurting me and wouldnt stop and now my body hurts D:






so tired=-=


so much homework

to the bed mobile!

*zzzz*

28102008 ~ <3

Okay..

so today..

we got let out early because it was tuesday and we leave at 2pm from school on Tuesdays..

and Edwina, Kim and I went to Victoria Gardens..

and we bought coffee from Gloria Jeans..

and DAMN was it good or what DX

look how yummy it looks D:
with whipped cream and caramel of course and a bit of spinkles x)

I really want to try starbucks one day D:

Haha

my "friends" say im seriously COFFEE addicted..

I dont really agree but yeah :]


and thats pretty much all for now :3


byeeee <3

Kim's House x)

YAY! I finally got to go to Kim's house =DD

We were nerds doing our homework, played EYETOY 3, I got sick and listened to music. It was really fun and I hope we can do it again some day =D

hmm.. Only bad thing was that it was SOOOO hot D:


like.. 31degrees Celsius.. that being.. 87 Fahrenheit I thnk xDD



it was boiling hot and I had to tram home D:


luckily the tram was air conditioned. So anyway.. Im eating turkish bread and Im really excited for NEXT Tuesday because Im going to meet Samantha in the CITY

HOORAHH!!


I few other people are going to..


so five people are going..


Me
Samantha
Christina (Samantha's Sister)
Johnny (Samantha's Friend, we're enemies D:)
Danny (Johnny's Brother)



so yeah..

that's all for now..

My blog's starting to go boring D:

oh wells xDD



ta ta ~ <3

Such a Good Day

What a good (and tiring) day its been..


I swear..

I have been doing so much work that ive wasted 10 hours of my life on it. and theres still more D:



Stupid homework and school

I blame everything ON SCHOOL

ITS ALL SCHOOLS FAULT D:<





the good thing is that I've been talking to someone special for the whole time..


sorta xDD

like about 3-5 hours somewhere

I LOVE HIM

I LOVE YOU MAYOOKH =D


<333333




so anyway..



yeahh


cbb anymore..

it was just on my to do list so..


*ticks*


done =DD







cheers <3

till next time :)

Life & A Best Friend

Okay, I sort of got upset at school again (Gee im such a wuss xDDD)

Well, not that anyone would know.


o-o

OMGOMGOMG sorryy just realized I have to call Lanna about something that has to do with this =-=;;


Okay so anyway.. The thing was..

Edwina was giving me looks again. In the end she pulled Lanna away and I bet she talked to Lanna about me behind my back. Gosh.. If she has something to say.. SAY IT TO MY FACE. *sigh* =-=;;

I would reckon Lanna and Kim being my bestest friends in HIGH SCHOOL so far..

I really miss Samantha. I wish she was here.. My dearest friend in the whole world. We've known each other since 5 years old. Unfortunately, our communication has been lacking. This is only because I moved away from her last year in May. We last saw each other on the 9th of May 2007. I moved because of my dad. We're planning to meet again on the first 1th of November. I'm really excited. SO about my dad.


~ Flashback ~

Springvale West Primary School was a school where parents could bring fresh, hot lunches in for their children. My mum was at home doing so while I was at school waiting. My mum called her friend over (male) and told him to bring some ingredients for her to make my lunch. My dad had recently been kicked out of the house by my mum because they had been separated for.. say.. a long time now, but my dad always comes back to see me and once he's in the house. You can't really get him out.

Well, that one day (while my mum's friend was still in the house), he broke into the house to find my mum's friend and thought (thinks they're still together) she was cheating on him and chased him out of the house and started hitting my mum and bashing my mum. This would've been Woman Abuse so my mum called the police and was taken to then police station. So right after I got let out of school, I was taken to the police station and after that we stayed at a motel for a bit, we then moved into a house where other women lived as well (same thing happening to them).

We stayed there for a week. While we were there we came with the police to our old house and got all our belongings and moved (yet again). Also while we stayed at the Womans Housing, I called Samantha every single day from the pay phone in the house (weird i know). Hearing her voice was always a lot to take knowing that I'd be far away from my bestest friend ever. When we were staying at the motel I called her and told her I'd be moving and both of us were crying over the phone and my mum even promised me she drive me to Samantha's every weekend. Guess it was a lie.

After the Womans Housing we moved to a temporary house and I soon attended Richmond Primary School and made some good friends.. sorta =D

and yeahh..


~ END ~


So there's some background information I guess ^^

I can't wait to see her.

I'm starting to really dislike Edwina

(i swear it's as if I use this blog thing as a complaining center)

Lanna and Kim both have my trust.. If I can't trust them..

I can't trust anyone.. at school xD



(aww im so emotional, im starting to cry now..)

im such a loner/loser whatever. I mostly make friends on the INTERNET (great..) At least I can be myself here. I'm a very shy person in reality and have a low self esteem (probably due to bullying) I find it very hard to make friends.. So I have friends.. but not much.. Other may sometimes think of me as wierd and ugly (because of my birthmark on my face (could keep others away from me or make fun of me))

Life is a Bumpy Road..

try making it Flat and Perfect..

it's not easy.



Cheers <3