Dear Dad, I'm Sorry..

I feel really upset, depressed and bad. I've been such a horrible person. I feel really selfish and may have just caused a rose to have wilt from suicide.

Remember how I told you about my dad that hit my mum and made us move and all that? Well, 2 days ago he died of suicide and I only heard of it today. I feel really bad. I always refused to see him because he was that one man i despised, he took my school things (paint brush FROM SCHOOL (teachers let us borrow it)) and used it as a a car engine cleaning tool. He brang in broken things off the street and tried to fix them. He never got a job. He smoked. Hit me for ever crying at anything. and etc etc.

now I feel horrible, when I look back.. there were some times he was really nice to me..

He gave me hugs and kisses and the forehead..
He sometimes cooked breakfast or dinner for me..
He let me ride around town on my scooter..

and just other stuff..

he was there more than my mum ever was.



I treated him so badly and yet for the past year (the incident) he kept walking around town looking for me. He went everywhere and asked everyone where I was. And now he's fed up because I wasn't there and committed suicide.





so Dear Dad..

I'm really sorry..



<3