10 days and 13 days

Okay, It's been 10 frikkin days since i last posted..

SORRY!!


ive been heaps busy.

Being it the last term for the school year, it's gradually time to work hard!
There are lots of Assignments to Complete. Essays, Homework and just other things.




13 days until I leave for Vietnam.. :\




Well, I guess this will be my last post.
I have too much to do



but you could always contact me at these places

http://www.punichiyo.deviantart.com

*Go on www.youtube.com and search OMGitsSUPERretard
and click on the channel


*AIM users - Contact SeeRawrrrrh

*MSN users - Contact OMGits_CHi@live.com



hmm anything else..?


i guess thats all


ill see you guys around then ^^


very sorry DX

<3

A faraway post :\

Aiyaaa ever since the thingomabop, i put my blog off for a very long time huh?

i've just been lazy, it's late spring and im sick! D: I hate summer and the hot weather, i don't know why but I always get sick in summer, i love the winter =D

uhhh yeahh

i've put alot of things off D:

Drawing
Homework and just other random stuff i dont know xDD


i feel seriously horrible D:

My Back Hurts
Tummy Owwieeee
Sore Neck
Sore Throat
Itchy Eyes
Sore legs
Aching Arms
etcetc



Schools been sucky, I hate school D:
well, my school. Farking hell our school is bloody making the students pay for sooooo many things D: even for the sports equipment use. THAT IS SOOOOO STUPID! DX. My family is blood friggin poor D:<

POOORRRRRR

there are even days we dont even have a dollar!

which seriously pisses me off

it's all my mums fault

her and her gambling problem ><

far out..








anywayy.. what else has happened..? oh right about the funeral as well..

damn was it tiring or what?

I had to kneel, for a bloody hour! I couldnt even walk properly when i had to get up and poor tea. I was soo pissed off DX


and just other random stuff happened i guess..



so tired..

T.T






Aaanndd I'm starting.. to get addicted.. to... Piano Instrumentals Again.
><;; they're just tooo peaceful T.T


well yeahh



Byee <3

My Grandma's Voice

Just got off the phone with my grandma.. one of the people that lived with my dad before he passed away..




wait..

(NOTE: 1st November 2008 - Burn Incense)

okay.. so.. My mum insisted on me calling my grandma. I did so and heard her voice, her angry, sad, happy voice. The aching came back to me when I heard it. She kept asking me questions of which I could reveal the answer to.


I might be seeing her soon.. My mum is making me go down to Springvale which is 17 suburbs away and I truly don't want to. I'm really scared, what if they don't let me go and insist on me staying? I dont really want to stay.. My grandma also insisted on me seeing my dad one last time. He died of pills overdose. My dad's dead face.. Im scared.. what i its really scary? I don't like scary things. I quick glimpse should do.. I should visit my grandma more often. It would probably make her happier.














I hate life.

Dear Dad, I'm Sorry..

I feel really upset, depressed and bad. I've been such a horrible person. I feel really selfish and may have just caused a rose to have wilt from suicide.

Remember how I told you about my dad that hit my mum and made us move and all that? Well, 2 days ago he died of suicide and I only heard of it today. I feel really bad. I always refused to see him because he was that one man i despised, he took my school things (paint brush FROM SCHOOL (teachers let us borrow it)) and used it as a a car engine cleaning tool. He brang in broken things off the street and tried to fix them. He never got a job. He smoked. Hit me for ever crying at anything. and etc etc.

now I feel horrible, when I look back.. there were some times he was really nice to me..

He gave me hugs and kisses and the forehead..
He sometimes cooked breakfast or dinner for me..
He let me ride around town on my scooter..

and just other stuff..

he was there more than my mum ever was.



I treated him so badly and yet for the past year (the incident) he kept walking around town looking for me. He went everywhere and asked everyone where I was. And now he's fed up because I wasn't there and committed suicide.





so Dear Dad..

I'm really sorry..



<3

Listening and Others =)

Okay, I'm the kind of weirdo that likes to be listened to when needed..

if I'm trying to say something and someone interrupts, i start feeling upset.. it's as if they don't care and would mostly only worry about themself.. I feel as if I (MEE) am a diary myself and is only a storage for others thoughts and worries, where as I have no place for my thoughts to go but here.

and I was playing a game this afternoon, I was killing these beetles for a quest and I spent 2 HOURS just trying to kill 10 2 HOURS!!! you know why it took soo long?! because other frikking players kept coming along and stealing my kill! i was soooo pissed off DX like they only cared about themself and was doing their own quests while I was looking around for the right monster to kill.. (why healing others on the way :D)



and pretty much yeah...



OH!!! and I didnt get to see Samantha T.T


she called and said that her parents didnt let her go to the city anymore because they thought it was too far away..







DAMN YOU SAMANTHAS PARENTS!!!!!!



I miss you Samantha D:


<3




Note to Self:

its freaky being home alone for 2 days..

and starving for 48 hours D8